I'm trying to fix dinner...
The phone keeps ringing..
A child threw pine needles at a sibling..
Math papers need to be graded..
A laundry basket with clothes needs to be put away..it sits on the table..mocking me every time I pass by..
A ball is stuck on the roof..
I really shouldn't have eaten that piece of pumpkin bread...
Oh no, is the baby chewing on something??
My mind is a swirl of details...It feels HEAVY..
I go to the glass doors to check on the children outside..and I notice the doors.......... which were cleaned earlier..... now have dozens of fingerprints upon them..
I sigh..and then the Lord gently rebukes me and reminds me what is really important...
When our first child was about 12 months old we went to visit my Grandma.. My Mommom.
We enjoyed our day at my Mommom's apartment. She fed us Lorna Doones, and cuddled her great grand baby. Our son had a fine time looking at himself in the full length mirror on the back of her door. Oh, how he loved to see himself, and his little hands left their mark all over the bottom of the mirror.
I spoke with my Mommom ,by phone, not long after that, and she told me how every day she would love to sit and look at the little hand prints he had made. She told me how her friends kept telling her she needed to clean the mirror, but she refused because when she looked at them it made her happy.
Six months later when we went to her apartment.... after her funeral...there on the mirror.. were my little boy's hand prints.
Jesus spoke to my heart and reminded me that I need to focus on the blessing of the hand prints.
In Matthew 11:30 Jesus tells us,
"For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
I have found when my burden feels heavy it is because I am trying to carry a load that is not from Jesus.
Having a perfect house, being the perfect home school Mom, the perfect number on the scale..are not burdens from Jesus...those are from the world. Those are not eternal investments..
My children, on the other hand, are eternal investments.
I am so thankful that Jesus is so patient with me, and that He reminds me daily..sometimes moment by moment..the incredible blessing of shepherding these little ones in His name. I am so thankful that He walks this journey with me, and supplies me with everything I need.
There is joy, and beauty, and an abundance of blessing in every day.. May the Lord give me the eyes to really see each moment as He does.
Here are just a few of the blessings of the past week..
Brother and Sister making pumpkin bread..
Joyfully cleaning together..
Friday Night; Pizza Night..Cooking with my kiddies
The joy of a full table...
A snuggly 5 yo in our bed..
A card game with my Blink partner..
Waking up at 1:00 a.m. to watch the Leonid Meteor Shower, and marveling at how AWESOME our creator is.