And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left. Isaiah 30:21~
When my older brother was around 5 years old my parents enrolled him in swimming lessons. My brother was not enjoying the swimming lessons too much, and each day he would play the "What If?" game on the way to the pool. I can remember him asking my Mom as we drove "What if?" over and over again. "What if you forget me?" What if I sink? "What if ???" add any number of calamities which could enter the mind of a yo little boy.
In my brother's defense the couple who taught the lessons were not the most gentle of teachers. They fully believed in the "sink or swim" method of teaching.
My parents wisely kept bringing him and my brother did learn to swim. He learned so well he eventually ended up receiving a swimming scholarship to the University of Florida, and was a record holder.
One year ago today *I* was playing the "What if" game...with God.
It was one year ago today that Merrily told us about the Ghana Program, and it was one year ago today that we received this picture in our e-mail.
One of a set of brothers who were in need of a family.
I remember I took the children swimming that afternoon after receiving the e-mail. I remember watching the children laughing and playing, and as I watched I wondered..
You see I felt the Lord saying in that still small voice that these were our sons. I felt Him calling us to Ghana, and to this adoption, but I was scared. I mentally reviewed every adoption horror story I had ever heard...and I asked "What if?"
"What if we adopt these children and ruin our family forever?"
"What if they hate us?"
"What if they try and run away?"
Today I am asking a different sort of "What if?"
"What if I had never met these precious children?"
"What if I had never heard Eben's amazing laugh?"
"What if I had never seen Joel's happy dance?"
"What if I had never experienced these two sweet boys spontaneously wrapping their arms around me and telling me that they love me?"
"What if I had never heard them sing as they helped me in the kitchen?"
"What if I didn't have these two as my sons?"
Honestly, I can't even imagine. They have blessed our family so much. It is a gift to have them as our sons. I am so grateful God led us on this journey, and brought us our sons.
God oftentimes will ask us to step out in faith. He asks us to "Get out of the boat and walk on the water with Him." If we look at our circumstances and the situation through our human eyes we will fear, and we will sink, but if we keep our eyes on Him..He will see us through, and bless us beyond our imaginations.