Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Matthew 11: 28-30
Wow, 5 months ago today Eben and Joel came home.
I look back over the last 5 months and I am amazed and blessed at how brave and strong and wonderful our boys are. I often think if it were me who were placed half way around the world with people whom I didn't even know.. I would surely just curl up in a ball and cry for years.
Yet, these dear children have bravely faced a new culture, new parents, new siblings, new food, and new customs. They have not only adjusted but thrived, and that is a testimony to what amazing boys they are.
When they arrived Eben and Joel's relationship was very typical of siblings who have spent time in an orphanage. Eben is very much a caretaker. He had been Joel's caretaker for his whole life and he had done an awesome job.
We watched as Eben always made sure Joel had enough to eat, was happy, obedient and taken care of. If there was a special treat to eat or a new toy Eben made sure Joel had one too.... even if it meant giving him his.
Eben had no idea how much we loved him. He had no idea how much we loved Joel. He didn't realize that we were there to love and care for them, and their every need. He didn't know that we would be there in the night when they were scared or hold them when they were sick. He was in survival mode, and even though he could see our large pantry stocked with food, it didn't compute that it was his and Joel's. He was bearing the weight a responsibility that was no longer his to bear.
So many times in parenting my children I have found God teaching me truth about Himself. When we are adopted into God's family He loves us with an everlasting love (more perfect than Jim and I could ever achieve as earthly parents). He is there to meet our every need and has a whole storehouse (pantry) of blessings ready to bestow on us. He yearns to carry our burdens.. and yet often I am like Eben was with Joel. I think *I* have to do everything on my own. I worry..I fret..I don't rest in His storehouse of blessings.
I am happy to say that at some point Eben began to trust us and our love for him..and for Joel. He longer frets over him like a worried father, but like a brother. His step is lighter and there is a joy that should belong to a child.
I pray I can learn the lesson so well to trust all to my Heavenly Father for He is perfect and good and desires nothing more than to care for His children. He wants me to turn to Him with all my needs great and small. He delights in caring for His children and is truly the perfect Father. May I trust in Him each day.
Thank you Lord for these precious children, and for being so patient with me.